"It's not what you do in your life that matters, it's how you do it". That has been my adage for several years, and a way to cope with unfulfilling tasks: I've put my pride in doing them as efficiently as possible, with high quality and with a smile.
But in the end that just isn't enough. At a certain point life almost got a stale taste and it became clear that I had to make a choice. Either I stay in the comfort zone, not asking too much neither from myself nor from life... Or I take a leap, and with that leap I don't just risk cold feet, but I also prove that I believe in in the possibility to discover and explore new treasures. Outside and inside. Reinventing my life, in a certain way.
Time has come to leap. The adventure can start.
26 Apr 2013
12 Apr 2013
Planting Seeds
The growth force of nature is just amazing. Put a small seed into some soil, water it now and then and just leave it for a while. Suddenly something starts to sprout, something very small and green pokes its head out. It strikes me with awe every time!
Despite the long and cold winter on my kitchen table there are already 20 quite big (it's all relative!) tomato seedlings, a handful of tiny pea plants and I'm sure coriander, runner beans and poppies will soon peep out too.
Of course I have setbacks, many seeds just don't germinate, but that's quickly forgotten when the little tomato plants start spreading their unmistakeable scent.
Few other things fill me with such deep pleasure. I just love "gardening" (even without having a garden)! It makes me feel so much part of Mother Nature - of life itself.
Despite the long and cold winter on my kitchen table there are already 20 quite big (it's all relative!) tomato seedlings, a handful of tiny pea plants and I'm sure coriander, runner beans and poppies will soon peep out too.
Of course I have setbacks, many seeds just don't germinate, but that's quickly forgotten when the little tomato plants start spreading their unmistakeable scent.
Few other things fill me with such deep pleasure. I just love "gardening" (even without having a garden)! It makes me feel so much part of Mother Nature - of life itself.
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| I love you, little baby tomato plants! |
4 Apr 2013
Faith
Bravery never was one of my main characteristics. I'm an overall cautious person, like when it comes to spending money or practicing sports. Downhill skiing? I don't want to kill myself!
Unfortunately this also goes for challenging my habits or taking decisions about minor as well as about major changes in life. "You know what you have, but never what you get"..
Well, I've come to understand that this is basically a lack of faith. Things will be fine! I won't break my neck in the ski slope or ruin myself by investing in long yearned for pearl earrings. As for life changes I just have to show trust. The outcome may be completely unknown, but eventually things will turn out all right. I will survive. Not only that: needed changes will turn things for the better. I just have to show some Faith.
Unfortunately this also goes for challenging my habits or taking decisions about minor as well as about major changes in life. "You know what you have, but never what you get"..
Well, I've come to understand that this is basically a lack of faith. Things will be fine! I won't break my neck in the ski slope or ruin myself by investing in long yearned for pearl earrings. As for life changes I just have to show trust. The outcome may be completely unknown, but eventually things will turn out all right. I will survive. Not only that: needed changes will turn things for the better. I just have to show some Faith.
22 Mar 2013
Spring Clean Out
Spring is here, I have cleaned my windows :-)
With the re-birth of Nature comes the urge for a "re-birth" at home: the big Spring Clean Out. I have too much stuff, while others have too little, and I lose overview. So what has not been used for a year (and that goes for EVERYthing) goes to charity. And it will definitely not be replaced.
To speak with Thich Nhat Hanh:
"Live simply and share time, energy and material resources with those who are in need."
With the re-birth of Nature comes the urge for a "re-birth" at home: the big Spring Clean Out. I have too much stuff, while others have too little, and I lose overview. So what has not been used for a year (and that goes for EVERYthing) goes to charity. And it will definitely not be replaced.
To speak with Thich Nhat Hanh:
"Live simply and share time, energy and material resources with those who are in need."
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| Spring Symbols |
14 Mar 2013
On the Verge
This not yet out
That not yet in
A pause
My mind goes blank
The gap needed
to make space
for the new
I smile into the emptiness
Enjoying
nothing
That not yet in
A pause
My mind goes blank
The gap needed
to make space
for the new
I smile into the emptiness
Enjoying
nothing
8 Mar 2013
I am a Sun
On fuzzy days like these
Wrapped in greyness
Energy too low:
Don't despair
Don't sink into lethargy
Never give up
Be a Sun yourself!
Shine within
Radiate out
Light through your eyes
Love from your heart
Shine!
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| Another little sun |
2 Mar 2013
Dream Scenes
You know how often negative or stressful thoughts come up in a day... Someone says something "wrong", you suddenly get an extra task to do, you're kept waiting at the doctor's or your child comes home with bad grades. Anything and everything can trigger your tensing up, feeling negative.
Going back to your breath is one way out, but my dear sister C taught me another very efficient one: go back to the feeling of your Dream Scene. I have several favorite dream scenes, the latest one when C and I shared a wonderful dinner on the terrace of a lovely Italian restaurant on a mild summer evening in Santiago - and the warmth, closeness and love of that moment.
So after a long and tiresome flight back home, during which a hyper active child prevented me from sleeping, I just dropped that irritation and went back to the sweet feeling at that wooden dinner table...
Going back to your breath is one way out, but my dear sister C taught me another very efficient one: go back to the feeling of your Dream Scene. I have several favorite dream scenes, the latest one when C and I shared a wonderful dinner on the terrace of a lovely Italian restaurant on a mild summer evening in Santiago - and the warmth, closeness and love of that moment.
So after a long and tiresome flight back home, during which a hyper active child prevented me from sleeping, I just dropped that irritation and went back to the sweet feeling at that wooden dinner table...
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| Little sister's fragrant giant pizza |
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